I can’t function without you. When we don’t talk for days at a time, I worry, I get depressed, I get needy. I don’t understand why I’m like this. And I’m sorry for that. I know that when I get like that it seems like I’m pushing you away. I’m not trying to. It’s times like that that I need you…
Although I did not write this.. Caitlin Lindsay McKissick <3
Tonight, it hit me. What I have been waiting to feel since the first day you applied for college connection. We will never ever be at school together again. And the sad thing is, I can’t bring myself to be happy that you are doing this because you want to. It makes me seem like a bad friend, but I feel like you’ve been taken from me. I know its my choice that I’m not with you, and no one has any idea how jealous I am for those who are. All the new friends you’ll make, the plans you’ll have. It just really sucks.
But you want to know something amazing everyone? This is my best friend in the entire world. And although she may make new friends, and have other plans, I know we will be best friends until the day we die. There is nothing great enough that could ever tear us apart. Nothing. You are my life support Caitlin, you make me strong. You help me stand up against everyone and do what I want, what I believe is right. Everything about you is amazing, and I miss it so so much.
I really hope I never make the stupid choice of being seperated from you again after college. This is the biggest mistake i’ve ever made and I don’t want to deal with the pain again. I hope you realize how very much I love you. More than anything <3